So many stressful things have been going on. One thing in particular is messing with my mind so much it has affected my daily life. I have moments that I convince myself everything is fine and there is nothing to worry about with this situation. But, other times where I can't eat, sleep, or function as a human being because of the very thought. Every time I talk to Tye about it he always tells me everything is fine. However, my mind begins to wander and I think "What if?". Along with all of the other things I can't understand in our relationship. Everything I see infront of me screams an obvious conclusion. But, on the other hand, logically it doesnt seem possible. I begin to think "Why would he?" He wouldn't! After everything we have been though he would never... But, why does he act like this and do that? I want to trust him but, I don't know if I can.

Not to mention our money situation. He is not the best at saving money or paying the bills on time. To make things worse I have no access to money at all. I am still not working. The only way I can get money for necessary items is through him. However, it's hard for that to happen when he spends all of the extra money in his paycheck so quickly... Now that he is getting booted from the army, I have no idea what will happen.

On Wednesday I am going to see an airforce recruiter. After Kaden is born I want to join into the military. I know it won't happen right away and its not easy, but I'm going to do what it takes.

My mind is a cluster fuck of maddness right now...

Maybe you guys should get a joint account so you can handle money matters?
» randomjunk on 2011-06-06 11:29:15

yeah, maybe you should work out a deal so that you have access to the money from the account. It would require a friendly, very honest conversation. I think if you insinuated that you didn't trust him to save money, he could get really offended. It sounds like a stressful time but I'm sure you'll make it through-- it sounds like Tyler has always been a decent fellow in the past. I think it's really tough for guys to feel like they can't provide adequately for their woman (and their baby!) I hope you can be his anchor through this tough time and assure him that any troubles that you are facing will be faced as a team.
» Zanzibar on 2011-06-08 12:00:11

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